Friday, January 18, 2008

Keep On

I really want to change the world. I kind of have this motto that "if I can change MY world, then I can change THE world." (It's even on my myspace page, so it must be official.) And I really believe that. I really, truly do.

But last night I found myself crying silent tears because so often it looks like I'm affecting something for the better, showing someone Truth. It looks like they're going to grab a hold of it... maybe they actually do...

...and then let go.

I know I'm not responsible for other people's problems... it's not that I think I am. But, I see a better way. I know Truth. There is FREEDOM to be found! A full life to live! There's so much excitement when a friend is finding that freedom, throwing off a life that hinders. But the grief that grips my heart when they slip back is almost crippling.

If I'm not meant to change the world, then why do I have this unquenchable desire to do exactly that? I often wish I could callous my heart, not care so much, not reach out so much... but I can't help it.

I love people. I love to shine light where there is none. I love helping others learn to shine their light brighter. So I'll keep shining, I'll keep trying, I'll keep loving, I'll keep giving.

Even if it doesn't make a difference everywhere, I've got to be making a difference somewhere.
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Lalena said...

You are making a difference! Keep on girlfriend....keep on!

MomOfDudes said...

Sometimes I wish I could have a "It's a Wonderful Life" Experience. I really think you change the world. You have changed my world especially in the shoe department.

Love ya

MooBeeMa said...

I think you're light shines very bright! The work of God is to BELIEVE!

p.s. I grew up in Newberg! Such a small world.

*emmy said...

You have already made a difference with in mine.

Thany said...

I hear every word of this.

Brandi said...

Your prayers have shined a light SO bright, there would be no way for me to ignore it.

I am finding the TRUTH again.

Thank You.Thank You.Thank You.Thank You.Thank You.Thank You.Thank You.Thank You.Thank You.Thank You.Thank You.Thank You.

crazybecks said...

I don't know how to thank you enough for what you have done for me!! If it wasn't for you and your church I don't know if I would have pulled out of that slump I was in when Paul left. Please continue what you are doing you are an awesome person to care so much for everyone you come in contact with.

much love